ya Allah, dugaan Mu.

xsangke time mcm ni sekali gus mslh dtg. mcm2 mslh. first, mmg lately ni mmg xsdp hati n slalu saket kepale tbe2. aku xmampu untk buat ape2 ble takdirnye dah ditetapkan mcm ni. ade kalenye, aku rse separuh gile fikirkan mslh2 ni sume.

kematian itu sgt menyakitkan sewaktu malaikat menyabut nyawa dari bdn tetapi sesungguhnya, ianya amat amat menyedihkan bg org2 di sampingnye. baru2 ni, sedare trdekat aku pergi menghadap ilahi. die lah org yg pling rpt aku mse kecik n kteorg xpenah brgaduh dari dulu. kirenye, mmg mcm adek dgn akk lah. ble aku dpt tau je die meninggal, aku mmg btol2 xcaye. kteorg bru lps ckp phone bru2 ni. tp.. dgn sekelip mate je die xde dah dlm dunie ni. aku rse mcm dh kehilangan segalenye. ape kan dayeku untk menghalang takdirMu. ya Allah, tempatkan lah dirinya dlm klgn org2 yg soleh. al-fatihah..

sakit itu dugaan dan ujian dri Allah yg kte xdpt nk elak wlau mcm mne skali pun. last few days, ayh aku call dokter tnye psl aku. hmm. aku xtau bnde ni sume nk jgk dtg time ni. he said, i will need an operation if it is getting worse n worse. mslhnye, mmg saket. i refuse to take the operation but smpai ble aku kne tanggung sume ni. it will be a minor operation but it will take time to heal n to walk back as normal person. aku sgt2 trtekan psl nih. everyday i kept thinking bout this.

sumtimes, kite perlu express ape yg kte rse kt org laen. slaen tmn special, kwn baek n kwn2 rpt, family ialah org yg pling memahami kte. tp bg aku, mslh yg brkaitan dgn family mmg xboleh di share dgn family. sumtimes, kte perlukan seseorg yg btul2 memahami diri kte untk meringankan beban yg ade.

i really need sumone who can talk to. i dont know what is up next of me. all my problems cant solve if i dont put the effort to solve it. but, what should i do? i need help n i need the support. i really dont want to lose u.

Ya Allah, kuatkah aku jalani semua ujianMu? berikanlah aku kekuatan dan ketenangan kpdku. sesungguhnya, hanya diriMu tmpt ku mengadu.

to the person that i've said i love you, i really mean it n im begging you, please be here with me.

dgn air mata..maafkan ku..