OMG! :0

i dont know when n why i start to become addicted to this hottest creature on earth. haha.
baby, im sorry, i suke die je. xlebey pon. haha.

ROBERT PATTINSON !!!

twilight twilight! :P

holiday begins!

yeah! finally! cuti balek! rse cm kejap je. dah nk abes tahun. hee. well for me, this December is not a really holiday time. maken dkt ngan 2010 maken kecot uishh.

LIST-TO-DO :

the worst part is? must! compulsary.

1) of coz TUITION. argh! add maths, physics, chemistry, biology.
*currently searching for biology teacher.
2) small notes begin from form 4. biology n sejarah.
3) arrange books for form 5.
4) bowling training.
5) gardening.
6) house work! bla bla bla.

and the best part is..?

1) shopping! yeahhh! yeahh!
2) family vacation! melaka, penang, kl, kedah, perlis, thailand, sarawak (errr, maybe?)
3) dating. hahah. KL KL KL!
4) sleeping.
5) music n gamess
6) hang out
7) movies
*waiting for twilight new moon, Christmas carol, ninja assasin (rain!), alvin and the chipmunks 2.
8) cooking! uuh i love it :D
9) time with family.

haha. n thats it. the end, thank youu :D

FROG dissection

katak ohh katak! hehe. alhamdulillah! hari khamis tuu, 19/11, it was so fun sbb ade bio class. *feveret class laa katekan. mmg da dri last week lg teacher suroh kami beli katak sbb nk bedah untk tgk organ2 dlm die. then last last minute, bdk cine xnak beli. sbbnye xde dwet. alahaii. ape la slhnye gune dwet sndri. xphm la npe dieorg sellfish. pdhal bndenye untk study, bknnye untk kpntgn sndri. haishhh. ape lg, mmg kutok abess la. yelaa. xkan kami yg mlayu nk pegi kdai katak. yg jual katak msty lh cine n absolutely tmpt tu kotor. then, kteorg pkse gakk sumone tlg blikn katak. ade sorang bdk cine ni stie la gak kan, die kate die dtg lmbt pagi khamis tu. die g cari katak pg2 bute tu, then die dtg lmbt g skola. die naek teksi. tu la. sape suroh wt last minute lg. ahahaha. bio class start kul 8.50. dlm kul 8.30 tu die da smpai skola bwk katak. ade 4ekor. sume comeyl2 je. haha. bla bla bla. dpndekkn cite, mse nk amek katak tu, sume bdk pmpuan dok jaoh2 jee. bunyi eee, aaaa, xnk xnk, takot laa, jgnn. sume kua time tu. hahaha. aku cuak gak la tp try nk face fear. sbb mcm best je pgg katak tu. haha.

fuhh! dlm aty ni mmg dup dap dup dap ahh. kalo katak tu dga, msty die da gelak2 pstu msty die ckp, apelaa manusie ni, nk pgg aku pon takot. hahah. so, dgn brani nye, aku masokkn tgn aku pstu amek katak tu. dh pgg dh kt tgn. pstu tbe2 bdk laki mne ntah kaco aku, die trkejot kn dri blakang. erghh! siyess nk pengsan mse tu. haha. pstu aku trus lpskn katak tu. adoyaii! mmg la katak tu lompat2 dlm kls. hahaha! die lompat, trus brtenggek kat tingkap. aku ni trkeja2 laa. tp xdpt gak. pstu ade bdk laki cine amek katak tu, trus ltk dlm beaker. then trus ltk chlorofoam kt katak tu. agak2 katak tu da pengsan, kua kn die, then ltk ats dissection tray. yeahh! mule kn pmbedahan! best gile ahh time ni! nmpk la kulit die sume. pstu da smpai bhgian dlm die, nmpk la sume organ katak tuu. then kat sini la i saw the frog ovary. wooo. bnyk nk maty! rse2 nye kalo skaly die fertilise, brjuta2 bole kua. ade group yg dpt male frog. kteorg dpt female. yg mne dpt male tuu. phm2 jela. die ade testis. ahaaa. male pnye xcomplex. female pnye complex gile! yg bezenye, female ade oviduct n ovary. tu sbb die complex. organ die sgt laa kecik n brlapis2. cnthnye, kidney die bwh ovary, small intestine bwh stomach. subhanallah! kagum ku melihat ciptaanMu. teacher ckp, human organ lebey kurang mcm katak ni gak. tp human lg complex. hmm. bygkn lah cmne. hee.

da abes bedah tuu, kire jantung die lak. still berdegup aw. comeyl je! sbb die kecik. lungs die mcm belon. hihi. then, ckgu suroh asingkn organ2 die n ltk kt tepi. mse ni best gile! aku pon dgn pkai lab coat n glove pgg gunting n pisau. mcm docter bdh oh. haha. dgn aty2 nye, bedah n tarik satu2 die pnye organ. potong die pnye cappilaries. ha! mse ni la darah ade. tp sket je. mse bdh kulit die, die xkua darah. tp bile potong organ die, mmg ade darah. darah tu plak wat sample untk bezekn dgn darah manusie. best laa mse ni! bygkn, mse kte cabot satu2 organ die, katak ni pnye jantung still brdegup. smpai kte cabot sblh lung die pon, die still brdegup gak. dasyat nye! then ble aku potong muscle kat jantung die, saat tuu la die gerak2 sket, n heart beat die trus xde. katak tu ketar2 n trus pucat. kesian pon ade, tp kte blaja. xpelah kan ? hee.

mmg best la time bedah katak. antare precious experience that i ever had. tringin nk bedah lg pon ade. n finally, i overcome my fear towards frog. hehe.

the END! :)

why?

bismillahirahmanirahim...
this blog is especially for u two to read.
i cant stand it too much. rse mcm nk pch jew kpale ble pk.
i feel like i lost everything. tp i still have u. pls, dun leave me ok? i need u time2 mcm niy.
rsenye, sume bnde dh wat, sume bnde dh explained, dh jujur. tp why it has to turn out like this again?

syg, i really2 miss the old of you. bkn you tp you n you. baby pls, npe lately ni silah rse silah dh mcm bkn kwn korang? npe gak silah rse korang dont even care for anything that i do. n yes, i can say, u never care anything about me. npe dlu kte xmcm ni? ingt x wktu2 kte spent time sme2? ingt x time kte stdy sme2? ingt x kte share secrets sme2? share tears sme2? ingt x? skang ni silah rse korang dh bkn mcm yg silah knl dlu. korang brubah sgt. n stiap kali silah ingt psl korang, msty silah akn nanges. n everything yg silah rse, sume die tau. silah rse silah dh kehilangan korang. silah rse lonely sgt2. trsgt2. i need u syg, pls. silah dh bnyk kali brdpn ngan korang, try bimbing korang, try jujur ngan korang ape yg silah rse, tp it seems nothing change. n still, i keep on hurting.

korang bnyk share sumenye due2 n never tell me. or maybe, klo korang bgtau pon, msty lmbt. n i admit, i am the last one to know bout it. dlu penah x mcm ni? xde kan. hmm.

korang xpenah care psl silah lately ni. silah pegi skola ke x ke, ade korang kesah? rsenye kalo silah masok hospital pon korang xkesah. those day, i remembered, ble xdtg je, balek dri skola, korang msty call. xcall pon msg. n asked, 'asilah, r u okay? npe xdtg. xsehat ke? dh pegi klinik? take care tau, rest bnyk2 kt umah.' mne ilank nye sume2 tu? tell me, do u still love the relationship we share? i know, sume nye mcm da ade yg punye, tp syg, bff r lot more important. sbb kte da knl lme kan. almost everything silah tau psl korang. nk kate xde kedit, xkn la 1sen pon xde? ade due henset pon xbole nk msg ke? xbole pegi public phone? xbole pnjm sape2? u know what, pnye la silah syg korang, mcm2 silah dh korbankn. almost everything yg silah syg. my time, money, things. tp silah xpenah kesah psl sume2 tu sbb silah tau sape silah kt korang n silah xhrpkn blsn pon dri korang n i know, u love me n for that reason, i sacrifice anything that i capable to give just to help u two. to see u two happy, to see u two smile n yg pling pntg, i want u to share everything that i experienced n silah nk jge hbgn yg sdie ade. silah ikhlas slme ni.

korang tau x kdg2 prangai korang tu mcm dh trlebey. n this matter silah dh jujur ngan korang kn? n silah xnk detailkn sgt yg ni. i tego u sbb i syg u. silah xnk nnty korang nyesal. jgn pntgkn bnde2 yg xpntg. jgn rugi mse bnyk sgt. korang tau kn, when i said i dont like it, i mean it. silah bkn nk kongkong idop korang tp dlu korang xde pon mcm ni? korang xseda, korang lyn silah pon da laen tau. nk mntk tlg sket pon dh xbole. even nk teman g mne2 pon xsudi. kalo bole pon mcm xikhlas. silah mntk tlg pon bnyk alsn. itu la ini la. silah ajk g mne2, korang mcm nk avoid, mcm nk jaohkn diri dri silah. yes, i can feel it. dlu slalu balek umah silah, slalu tdo umah silah, slalu lepak sme2, slalu smbg2, slalu tu slalu ni. now, dh xde dh slalu tu. korang xtau ke yg silah alone? korang xrealise ape yg silah rse bile korang wt silah cmtu. pedih tau x hati ni. sedeh sgt2.
dlu ade kwn nk share problem, ade yg dga, ade yg nsht, ade yg care, tp now? i only have my family n him. patotnye, u two should know what is inside of me. silah rse silah jaoh sgt2 ngan korang. jaoh sgt. mcm silah ni org asing dlm idop korang. dh mcm xrpt mcm dlu. syg, geng silah, korang je kn. pls, im begging u, pls stop making me hurt lg. almost every nite i cried bout u two. yes, i cried a lot. mse silah tgh tulis blog ni pon i cried.

silah try cari mne slh silah. maybe i am wrong. so, silah mntk maaf kalo silah yg slh. ni ape yg silah rse. silah rse chemistry kte mcm dh xstrong mcm dlu. tp knape? hmm. mybe ni ujian dri Nya untk kte tige. tp there must be a way for all these. sume mslh slme ni, sume ade jln. tp npe ujian kali ni mcm susah sgt2 nk cari jln untk slesaikn. ya Allah, tabahkn hambamu ini.

korang msty prasan npe lately ni silah brubah. yes, i admit. when i get closer to u, i am hurt in the inside. sume tu sbb ape yg korang dh wat kt silah slme ni. silah sje mls nk lyn prasaan sedey nih. tp kdg2 silah pk, kalo silah trus cmni, silah msty dh xrpt ngan korang lg. n i dont want that to be happen between us. silah kdg2 mls nk pk n mls nk tnjuk prasaan silah kt korang. slme ni, im being hipokrit tau. im just saying that im okay but it is absolutel not true. im just saying that im happy n forgive u two, but i really am sad n hurt.

silah mntk sgt kte jd mcm dlu balek. silah ikhlas kwn ngan korang. but please, dont make me cry again n again. silah rindu time2 kte dlu. silah rndu time kte sme2. silah syg hbgn kte. n silah syg sgt kt korang. silah tulis blog ni just nk express my feeling so that u two know ape yg silah rse slme ni. rse berat sgt kpale silah ble ingt sume2 niy. please, can we start all over again? n please, heal back my heart. i need u two.

u r my best friend n i will always call u as my best friend each n every single time because i know, best friends last forever.

i really am sorry bcoz i have to say all this out.
i love you fara ena. i really do.





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